One may ask... what is anticipation of skinny? Well Webster defines anticipation several ways!
1. Realization in advance; foretaste
2. Expectation or hope
3. Mental attitude that influences a response
So what is the relevance between anticipation and skinny you may ask? Well let me explain myself. Who doesn't have the desire to be skinny, or to be healthy and fit? To go to the store, everything fits, looks nice and your appearance is flawless. Well the truth is your appearance will never truly be flawless. Every person will always have flaws that they just can't look past, something that lingers in their mind that hinders the observation of their own beauty.
I have set myself out on a weight loss, lifestyle change journey. Now anyone who knows me knows I can not stick to a diet PERIOD. I just have no will power, but then I was thinking today, thinking of how it must feel to be thin and beautiful! How much better would I feel if I did not look in the mirror everyday and think, oh man, I look big. Sometimes I even kid myself to think that I look alright, that I am OK with this weight but then I see a picture, when I think I look my best, the picture shows my worst. I am a very wishy washy person, thus the lack of self determination to stick with a diet, however, I am determined this time to make a change. Now, I love love love junk food and candy, problem #1. Problem #2 no will power, so this isn't looking to promising right. At least it will be some good reading, I am hopefully going to use this blog as a sort of accountability. I am not sure if anyone will read it, well I will make my Husband read it, but if you do I hope you are the same kind of person I am and decide to make this journey with me.
Let's take a look at my weight journey... We will start in high school a mere 6 years ago. Back then I was not a big girl, I thought I was because all my friends wore size 4 and 6. I thought wearing a size 10-12 might as well label me as Big Bertha. Boy was I wrong, if I could only squeeze into that 10 or 12 I'd be ecstatic. After high school I put on around 10 pounds no big deal, still could wear most of what I wanted to. Then I got married, the doom of it all. Eating out, the freedom to buy whatever food I wanted without my mom looking over my shoulder, or having to tell me I don't need to drink so much soda. Who doesn't gain weight when they get married?? I know my husband and I did, but you know men, they can drop it like nothing! So after about 2 years of marriage another little surprise, I'm pregnant. What didn't I eat when I was pregnant I mean seriously. At least I am honest about it, I was a pig! Well 16 months and a c-section later, I am still packing 10 pounds baby weight and about 30 post high school weight. Which gets me where I am today... tired of being big! Thus my title, "the anticipation of skinny"
I have an expectation or hope to one day look good in a clingy dress, to be able to go to the store and not hide the size I pick up, to not hold up my pants and think I could hang them on a 50 foot flag pole! I am making a mental decision to make a response so here it goes, this is entry number 1. The first day of the rest of my life... I must break my addiction to food! I often joke and say I don't have the will power to be anorexic and it is true! Anyone who wants to join me, let me know... we can do it! So HERE WE GO!
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Megan, I'm right there with you. I've managed to take off about 10 lbs but I'm stuck. It seems that as busy as our lives tend to get, we wouldn't have time to eat so much. I think it is the hours that we eat as much as the quantity. I've joined clubs, paid the fees and then NOT gone to exercise. Maybe we need to start a walking group. We could meet and go across to WF High School and walk the track. That would be a lot easier when the weather warms a bit. I'm game if you are. We need to write down everything we put in our mouths in a day and have to share that with each other. Sort of like an accountability partner...... just a thought.
ReplyDeletei am there with you tooo...i joined weight watchers only to GAIN weight. It stinks, I can't loose weight for the life of me. One day Megan, one day! We will get there!
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