The anticipation is killing me...

Well, I haven't been able to post everyday like I had hoped. It is probably a good thing too! This weekend was not a good time for eating healthy. Friday, Saturday and most of Sunday were spent @ the church. Friday and Saturday we had to finish decorating and plan out the valentine banquet, which I think went quite well, so we ate junk. I tried not to eat to much and had some soup and half a sand. But Friday night we went to Ronnie's and had some delicious wings. I know I know, but I am back on track this week. Or I was until Matthew surprised me with valentine candy last night!!! Like I said I love love love candy, so now I have a ginormous box of chocolates calling my name. I am one that just can't throw food away, I hate the thought of wasting that money, but I really hate the thought of eating all that chocolate. I think I am going to bring some to work and let my co-workers get fat lol! I really is difficult to stay on track though, it makes me wonder why there is even food that is that bad for you. Wouldn't weight loss be so much easier if non of that junk food was at our fingertips. I know if I had to eat healthy, I would probably just starve but I think I would adjust. I am really trying though, I am determined to lose enough weight where I am comfortable with myself. I don't care about being a size 4 but I want to feel like I look good... But it takes time. That is the part that stinks huh... thus the "anticipation is killing me" You make the conscious decision to change and then see no results for weeks or even months. I know dieting is supposed to be slow, but when it comes down to me losing 1-2 pounds a week or eating my cheeseburger and maintaining my weight... Gosh the cheeseburger sounds great! However, I am determined to find something that works for me, I will most likely have to dream up my own "custom" program but nonetheless, I am going to find something that I can stick with and make this work. I joked with someone yesterday that, I am just going to eat what I what and not worry about my weight because the Lord is coming back soon and then I will get a perfect body. As true as that is, I'd still like to have a better body now. I know the Bible says our body is supposed to be the temple of God and right now I am not a very attractive temple! But hey we will get there!!! Thanks for the comments ladies, it is encouraging to know that I am not the only one going through this battle...